Hiking and Death

I am hiking across Utah with a small group of friends. Around midday, we meet up with a few other groups who are doing the same thing. It is Hike Across Utah day. We all stop for lunch. While we are eating, someone drives by and shoots and kills Derek. I start crying because my friend has just been shot and killed right in front of my eyes. But I keep trying not to cry because I am afraid that if anyone sees me crying they would assume I am in love with Derek, but I'm not.