Sunday, November 20, 2011

Relationship Confusion and Planned Wedding

I am in a class that is being taught in a very large bedroom. Most of the class is sitting on the floor but I get to spend at least part of the time on the bed. Zack is in the class with me along with several other students from his major. They will all be leaving on a field trip before class ends to someplace cold and are thus dressed for cold weather.

Apparently things have been awkward between Zack and me lately and I decide to leave him alone. But he starts talking to me like everything is fine.We have a pretty good conversation and I think we might be making progress in getting past what was wrong. After class, my teacher asks me how things have been going between me and Zack, which I think is strange and I wonder if she thinks we are dating or something. She says that she has noticed that sometimes we talk to each other very happily and other times we don't talk at all. I tell her that sometimes things are good between us and sometimes they aren't, and that I understand part of what changes things.

Mandy is apparently also a teacher who works closely with this other teacher, and I wonder if Mandy will learn from my teacher that I am dating Zack.

Everybody in the ward starts planning my wedding even though I am not engaged to anybody. I let them go on with it because I believe that Zack will get back from his trip and we will talk and agree to get married. I am extremely busy at this time with I don't know what and have no time to get involved in the planning myself.

Then it's the day before the wedding and I still haven't seen Zack. I am at the church and see Jenny, a sunbeam, carrying my wedding cake, which is decorated with real flowers. She turns the wrong way and I see that she is going to walk right into the door. I hesitate too long to correct her and she ends up smashing the cake, which falls to the floor. About half of it is completely ruined but the rest can be reassembled to make a smaller cake. I mention to the people there (Jenny, her mother Rebecca, and an older Relief Society woman) that I had seen the trouble and just hadn't reacted quickly enough. I then had to reassure them that I really liked the cake and that I want to have my future wedding cake to be decorated with flowers. In saying this, I revealed to myself that I did not see this wedding as my real wedding.

At some point a groom was chosen for me. I don't know who he was but have the impression that he is some sort of singer or rapper.

The morning of my wedding we have a breakfast party in the church multi-purpose room. Dad is supposed to give a speech introducing me. He tells me to sing the U's fight song. Instead, I stand up and sing the BYU fight song.

I run off for a while to work on whatever it is that has been keeping me so busy lately. The wedding is supposed to be starting now, but I guess what I had to do was very urgent. So they hold a talent show in the chapel to keep all the wedding guest occupied.

When I get back, I go up to the pulpit and thank everybody for coming in some humorous manner. I say a few other funny things and somebody who was on the stand for the talent show questions why I'm being so funny, and I say I have a hard time being serious. But then I do get serious. I tell all the ward members (the wedding guests) that I am actually not going to get married that day, but they are free to enjoy themselves at the wedding luncheon and reception and eat all the food. I am going to ask who it was they were going to have me marry since nobody ever told me, although I suspect he is a certain person seated on the stand for the talent show, but I wake up before I get to that part.

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